HOME VISIT TOMORROW!

MY house is not ready for it...plus we are having a little family get-together at our house tonight- which will lend itself into more crazy messiness, but i am excited. I feel that when i get a clearer assured feeling about really being able to adopt (as in, a strong positive home visit- and the sense that our finances are truly sound) then we will request to go to committee....i am hoping and praying that it will be at the end of june/early July. I guess it just doesn't seem real to me until we are matched....and i am scared to go to committee until i feel super stable about it all...ugh all the unknowns! I am also apprehensive about who to chose to go to committee on...we are following two adorable little boys and i can't see how to chose without being ridden with guilt!